I'm on the outside looking back on the hardest time of my life. I made it through. You will, too. It's just a case of knowing it. It will happen like this... You'll know you'll unconditionally just be fine, even though you really don't believe it. You'll accept the setbacks and the craziness of your situation. Basically, you'll just let the next six months or so pass by while being a robot and putting yourself through the motions while you feel the way you do.
You'll amaze yourself with what you're achieving regardless of your negative dreamlike state, and those weird symptoms will start to wander off. Then you'll start to forget what they actually felt like. That will be weird because you actually won't be able to make yourself feel them anymore. Finally, at the other end, you'll be the person you want to be, the one you've been looking forward to being all along.
You also will have picked up some amazing qualities along the way. These are qualities you have no concept of until you've been to hell and back. They generally consist of making you into a much more controlled and balanced person.
Don't feel bad for looking for advice and help on the Internet, from friends and family, or anywhere else. But be aware that none of your friends are going to get you through this. They can do nice things for you, say encouraging words. But that's all the power they have. I remember looking to the 'net for help and finding only quick-fix solutions, reams of pages out to exploit people. This just wouldn't do. Don't put up with that. With the odd exception, everyone wants your money, and how the hell can they know what's currently going on uniquely in your head to make such a huge claim to be able to fix you?
I know what it's like to go from a happy average young bloke with a great career, charisma, talent and looks, into an absolute mess of catastrophic proportions with no idea what was going on inside my body and mind. It's a horrible experience. But it's all your own. You're privileged to have found your own private hell. All right, so it's irrational and embarrassing and crap, but there's a reason for that. You have to go through this for the sake of your own personal development.
Your mind's on fire now because it hasn't learned to process the misinformation in it. But it will. You've got to go through the motions while it does. Honestly, there's only one wrong thing you can do: Hide from the world. That approach just sends your psyche into a further confused mess.
You might notice that my story doesn't really consist of morbid repetition of the same tired frightened details and talk about how I was afraid to leave the house because of what all this could mean (or go into any of my symptoms in great detail, or really mention how I used each and every one of my friends as a crutch for my emotional and psychological instability). That's because it simply doesn't matter anymore.
My story generally does consist of advice and assurance. There's a reason for that. I'm done with the experience. My psyche actually is done with it. Can you imagine the day when you get there? It's probably closer than you think. The experience breaks you completely. You actually fall right into the dark place, then you come back out, a better, more rounded, stable, responsible person.
I guarantee you will get through this. And when you do, you will be glad it happened. You only have to be careful with your thoughts for the time being. Plan out what you're doing and push yourself into it for now. Ignore the chaos, or better still, let it do what it wants. It's a separate entity from you. It can be beaten quite easily. And once this horrible thing has had its way with you and you've got it sussed, it'll never get you again!